As Simple As It Seems

My Memoir

My life since 2010 until now.

It was 2010 when I came to Dominican Republic I didn't know I was going to stay and live here, I just thought I was going to stay for the summer, but I was wrong. I was ok with all in the beginning. I has a huge house and a great pink room, but I wasn't happy. I hated the fact I had to live here and leave my old life behind. I was homesick. There was only one thing that made me comfortable and that was my cousin. She stayed for the summer. But nothing was the same.

Once school started everything was worse, I had to get glasses because they didn't let me sit upfront (which is ironic because now I can't sit in the back). I barely knew anyone, but i still hated them, I only knew Paola. But I pitched black all that so I can hardly remember. All I know is that I hated everything except for my other life with my cousin at my grandmother's house. 

Everything was nice afterwards. I was happy. I fell in love with this boy who lives in my grandmother's neighborhood. It was an impossible love, nothing ever happen but he just made me happy. Honestly, I believe that that year I live more my other life more than this one, because you could say that I was here, but my mind and all wasn't. I was ok with school and all but I would always prefer not being here. Since we moved here my grandfather lived with us. When he died it was a great impact in my life, everything got worse. my depression was intense, knowing the fact he died in the floors of my house. I became distant, I never thought I could make it. I had to leave my other life behind because it reminded me of him. That year was very sad for me because I lost my grandfather, my godfather and my crush. So everything was a big weight. I almost did some things I still don't regret. This changed me forever.

The first few months of 9th grade were normal and boring. I went to some parties. I had stronger relationships with my friends here. After New Years Eve, I fell in love with Raylin. I barely paid attention to my friends, I was more concentrated on my relationship with Raylin. As time passed by we became closer. It's funny how everything started with a simple game on Valentine's Day. We were always together, we couldn't last a minute without talking. Everything was nice, even after we fought we were happy again. Once I knew he was going to leave I fell apart. I still can't accept the fact I lost what I cared about the most. His last weeks here weren't so happy but we made it through all that. When our days were shortened I felt an emptiness inside. When he left on September 6, my dad left too and I had a dentist appointment. Not concentrating on  my physical pain, my heart was aching. He left a letter that made me feel better when I read it even if it made me cry. Even though he's not speaking to me and everything is over, I will always keep my promise.

This school year is a fresh start, let's start over and fix everything. I'm embracing my problems at home and my feeling and moving on. From now on I'm on my own.